Shortly after I got to Dr. Sivie's office I was called back to get new x-rays taken and I got a little gut check... wait, should I do that? James and I are trying to get pregnant, what if I am pregnant now and I just don't know it yet. So I explained to the tech and she nixed x-rays and took me on back to my room. Everyone that came to see me seemed super excited to know I might be pregnant but it had me thinking. I need to know, either way, once and for all. So as soon as I got some food in me I was going to Target. I had taken a cheap-o test a couple of days before and it did have the faintest of blue lines saying I was but that line was SOOO light there was no way I was going to trust. This time I was going to shell out the big bucks and get a digital test. It literally says "not pregnant" or "pregnant" with no mistakes of a stupid little blue line that's so light you can barely see it.
Later that evening James and I are watching "Star Trek" ....okay, he's watching Star Trek and because I love him and love being with him, I am sitting next to him on the couch. lol. I need to use the restroom and on my way there I am going back and forth thinking, "Do I take the test now? They say it's better first thing in the morning... There's no way I am but it would be nice to just know so I can know..." Well, I decided to take the test. There's three in the box, so why not use one of the test now. I read the instructions and follow as told. It says wait 2 minutes. I can do that... well 30 seconds later the word flashes on the tiny little screen, "pregnant". HOLY CRAP! I still don't know if I believe it at this point but you know it could be true. I walk out and pause James' show and tell him, "James, I am pregnant." and showed him the test. He sat quietly and so did I. We prayed, a very short prayer because at this point we're both in shock! I felt disbelief, scared, nervous, happy, excited, joyful, blessed... you name it, I felt the feeling. I was so excited I had to tell someone and my BFFs said I absolutely was not allowed to call them and tell them over the phone so I called my sister. She is family and keeps secrets at the same time! :-)
With the story of us finding out being told I do have to add that I am truly surprised. For two years I have been praying for us to be ready to have a baby. God has graciously made us wait. He had so much work to do in our hearts separately. It's amazing to see what He has done in James' heart and how He has grown me to view mommyhood in such a new light. Then once we began talking about trying and as our conversations showed that this would be happening sooner and sooner, I began to pray for joy in each and every day. I just knew we were going to have difficulties getting pregnant. I had prepared my heart for the "worst" if there is a worst. I had already talked to my doctor about time lines concerning fertility medicine and began praying about adoption. In October, James and I took a trip to Mexico just to get away and while there we decided to throw away our birth control and just go with whatever God had planned for us. I got my first period after stopping the pills and then this month voila- baby on the way. I can't tell you how blessed I feel right now. I have been praising God daily for this joy and to receive this gift so soon! It brings me to tears to think that this was His plan all along. He is so big and in charge it boggles my mind. Right now James and I are just praying for a healthy child all the way through. We are hoping that we don't miscarry. We know it is so common. And we also know that if we do happen to miscarry that is also a part of God's plan for us and our story. Please join us in praying for good health. Either way we will praise His name all of our days because God is good!
Later that evening James and I are watching "Star Trek" ....okay, he's watching Star Trek and because I love him and love being with him, I am sitting next to him on the couch. lol. I need to use the restroom and on my way there I am going back and forth thinking, "Do I take the test now? They say it's better first thing in the morning... There's no way I am but it would be nice to just know so I can know..." Well, I decided to take the test. There's three in the box, so why not use one of the test now. I read the instructions and follow as told. It says wait 2 minutes. I can do that... well 30 seconds later the word flashes on the tiny little screen, "pregnant". HOLY CRAP! I still don't know if I believe it at this point but you know it could be true. I walk out and pause James' show and tell him, "James, I am pregnant." and showed him the test. He sat quietly and so did I. We prayed, a very short prayer because at this point we're both in shock! I felt disbelief, scared, nervous, happy, excited, joyful, blessed... you name it, I felt the feeling. I was so excited I had to tell someone and my BFFs said I absolutely was not allowed to call them and tell them over the phone so I called my sister. She is family and keeps secrets at the same time! :-)
YAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! I was JUST thinking about you the other day, wondering how the whole journey was going, and then I see this! EEE!
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